Expectations

I love to be myself and do what I like, eat what I like, talk to whom and whatever I like but at times I am saddened of the fact that I expect. I killed this expectation thing in the past, but this is rigid, as time passes it comes back in one or another form. What I like, I feel it should be likeable, what I eat, I want it to be mouth-watering, whom I talk, I expect a similar response, and that is how I kill the opportunity to become a calm and composed individual. You shall speak to someone who does not behave in a mean way, how simple is that, right? It is actually effortless, and I am currently doing it. Best way to get over expectations is to sit back, relax and go back into your memory where it all started, you will always find the culprit is not someone else but you. 

Why I need anyone, all because it is always told that human is a social animal?

True, humans are the social animal, but can you get over this dilemma and lead the life with peace alongside being a human? 

Yes, by keeping things aside and yourself above all. By giving yourself an image where we might put someone who we aspire to become. Keep yourself first and everyone or everything next, talk to yourself, love yourself, give it some peacetime, you will see things falling in place like it had always happened but seldom observed. 

P.S.- When I am disturbed I talk to myself, I write, maybe not so meaningful to many at least I am giving myself peacetime.

People

Reading stuff, listening to professionals and after having lots of discussions with yourself and people surrounding you, if you make any point out of it, you feel good. Reading more about people, about the factors making them behave the way they do, learning communities, you think you know them. Unfortunately, you are nowhere close to reality, the situation when they behave differently to you, instead of eating those theories to think in depth, you start behaving like one. That’s where humanity lies ultimately, reading, learning and applying on others is one thing but thinking around and staying calm in such situations is different. Your behaviour changes like how they are reacting not otherwise, being a wisest of all and calmly handle it. Later you will sit back and realise the scenario with those theories, by the time you have lost an opportunity to act wisely. I tell you people are interesting, think of them as subjects, not as an enemy or someone willing to hurt you. Behaving the same way it is destined is not your piece of cake, you are learning to change the ‘destiny’ not to be a part of the same.